Saturday

It's finally Saturday!

Whoo hoo!

I can finally take a breather and rest a while. I slept to about 12 noon today. I feel very rested and energized. I know I am supposed to feel happier after being rested, but somehow I feel even more stressed. I think it is because of the oncoming exams.

My exams are coming! Ahh! I don't know how I will do... I want to make it to the honours roll in the school, but somehow I don't see that happening. Why? Well, because I have not had good grades for my CAs. I know I am averaging a B for all my modules but I don't know how to improve. I can slog my guts out, but I think I will lack the discipline to maintain it. Looking at how well Lydia is doing makes me even more frustrated. I envy her and I want to do as well as her. I know she does it by working very very hard. She studies every Saturday you know. Every spare moment she has, she studies. Damn! I don't know how she does that! Sometimes just looking at my books makes me feel sick.

I will never have the discipline like Lydia.

I feel so stupid!

I feel like a failure!

Ahhh!

What am I going to do with my life?

Ciao...